19.3.05

the long goodbye...

so no one likes when saying good bye takes a long time... so i'll make this short... peace


if you care...

18.3.05

countdown...

15.3.05

deadline...

so i have two weeks to determine the next year of my life... is that fair or right in the senee of any state of thinking? yeah doesn't matter casue i still only have 2 weeks...

4.3.05

un_titled

dont really know what to say... kinda in a mood to write, let my thoughts just sorta spill out... random, yeah thats ok... i like where things are right now. feels ok, low stress but i know that will only last for a little bit. i'll take it for how ever long its around. still faced with choices, but not too worried. wish there was no such thing as snow-after-february-28th... last nite made me smile. thankful for the people who are close to me... wish i had some better music. hope portugal is warm. france is sooner than portugal. that is gonna be so freakin great. i feel like i should be busy right now, but dont wanna find busy work. wow, who gets in a "mood to write"? yeah, im a dork... im gonna go...

28.2.05

running...

one of those times i wish i knew what was in my own head... cant get it out. all i know is that i dont like it. some place i've been before. something i thought i'd beaten. wish i could get alone for a while... even away from myself... no time...

22.2.05

retro: cuban nite...

hit this new cafe called retro. christian-based, volunteer run, free wireless... not a bad placc. got to sit in on an informal meeting with a friend and the cafes "founders" if you wanna call them that... hearing some of the ideas that they have, i wish i could be involved in a lot of ways...
sat and talked with a friend in a way that i had not done in a long time. his dreams are huge... made me wish i could dream like that. thanks for tonite...

20.2.05

loss for words...

that was a stupid conversation... of all the things to talk about, of all the things needing to be talked about, it doesn't even get brought up... i hate this...